Yellow Brick Road
Last night was an ethereal experience.
A smokey haze blanketed the air, the stage was drenched in blue, red and purple light. A large totem pole stood in the centre of the stage lighting up with the music, behind it, a projection of rolling waves and forests, wolves and clouds moving in time with the dreamy sounds. Banjo, trumpet and harmonica solos filled the room, a mystified crowd vibing with the music. In an earlier post I talked about how my New Year’s resolution was to see snow, and although not in the original form I thought it would be – here it is!! During the final song, a blanket of snow confetti came raining down onto the stage.
I was especially stoked when Angus and Julia played my favourite of their songs last night, ”Yellow Brick Road”. In many ways London has been my very own yellow brick road. Without trying to sound like a reality TV contestant, it really has been one hell of a journey with lots of ups and downs and unexpected turns. I’ve learnt to expect the unexpected and embrace everything that comes my way, one day at a time.
I do so many different things now that I am living over here and transcend my comfort zone daily. It can feel overwhelming sometimes but also totally liberating. Yesterday I interviewed the former Deputy Prime Minister of Turkey and current Minister of Tourism and Culture at the World Travel Market in London on behalf of Travel Channel. I then went straight to the O2 Academy Brixton to watch Angus and Julia Stone perform. I’m constantly on the go here, there is so much to see and do and I just want to experience it all.
I think I always knew that this concert was going to mark a turning point for me and my journey here. In fact, this is the first concert I’ve been to solo which was such a freeing experience and I can’t recommend it enough! Don’t wait for anyone else, just do it. I like to think everything happens for a reason, and in my mind this event signified for me new beginnings, independency and positivity.
Their songs about friendship, love and heartbreak resonate with me a lot. Everyone is fighting their own battles and trying to navigate difficult situations that crop up in our lives from time to time. But it is entirely how we choose to deal with and react to those situations that challenge us which matters at the end of the day and allows our inner strengths to shine through.
This same day, Tom booked his flight back home to New Zealand.
I’ve had this feeling for a while that his heart wasn’t completely set on London. We’ve talked about it so much and gone over and over our worries and concerns but now that he’s actually booked it, I guess that just makes it a lot more real now. This person that I have spent the last four years of my life exploring with is now leaving and I feel vulnerable. I don’t know how to feel or how to process any of it. I like to pride myself on being independent and strong, so it’s hard to admit to myself how hard this is going to be.
When you’re in a situation like this you have to weigh up what is more important to you, what you want to prioritise. Do you lead with your emotions or do you take a logical utilitarian approach and make decisions based on what will bring about the most happiness to all involved? The problem is there is no obvious right or wrong answer to any of these questions and no amount of advice from any friend or family member can make it any less difficult.
I am so grateful and happy that Tom came over here with an open mind and gave London a chance. We tried our best to make it work and while it didn’t quite work out the way we thought it would, I don’t think it’s a failure, more it just wasn’t meant to be. This experience has shaped us in many ways and I don’t regret a single thing. I have had some of the best times of my life over here with him and our friends over here. He’s taught me so much about myself and constantly reminds me to find joy in the little things. Together we have travelled through foreign lands and explored new cities and cultures. We’ve made memories that we will remember forever.
On Friday night we’re meeting up with some friends in Chinatown to have dinner and marvel at the Oxford Street Christmas lights which have just been turned on. Life’s too short to get down about situations like these. You need to remember to embrace the moment and make the most of any situation.
At the end of the day, whatever will be, will be.
Everyone is following their own Yellow Brick Road and we all have to make difficult decisions along the way that challenge us and have consequences. But at the end of all of it, we have to believe it will lead to good things.